I definitely feel your pain...Uncle Sam's Kanoe Klub broke me in som interesting (ok..crappy) ways...I suffer from post trauma depression and anxiety..it is very difficult for me to maintain normal relations with anyone, but what I have found is that when things seem to be going south or just feel weird, I have to pull myself back and examine what is happening, and ask myself is this real or is it my brand of crazy coming out..very often I find that that is exactly what it is..and I can adjust and move on...at least in interpersonal relationships...dealing with the world at large..not so much.