Yeah...just take faith in the fact that you're living in a time when you can not only get a good diagnosis and they can give you a plan to manage the problem. If the finances are a problem, just keep looking around...I used to work for a social services agency and we could usually find a program that could help folks manage if they had a problem like this pop up. Your lifestyle may change (hell, it WILL change!) but you should take it as a challenge to recast your life in a way that will help you to live longer and be healthier...to PREVAIL, as it were, rather than to just exist. Yep, it sucks...but long ago my brother once said of life, "...there's no way we're going get of of this thing alive so why play a conservative game?"

You've got things to do, places to go and people to meet so take control.

Best

AA