So sad my friend. I know you'll grieve from your soul and that's the very best thing you can do. You're deeply spiritual and you'll become even moreso from this passing. Know you feel still connected to her.

Just keep crying, but don't forget to drink a lot of water. Grieving dehydrates...drink water and keep on grieving.

Hugs

And, giving CPR is like playing tug-or-war with God. Whether you win or lose depends upon God's will, not yours. Nice way to kiss her goodbye though, offering life if it is to be.

I know you realize how lucky you are to have been there with her at that time. You'll never regret it.

Ron