It does make me sad, I tried to tell my family it is not about the pay. But they never could understand. I made $7 an hr working as a Police officer and $9 and hr as a paramedic, but I think if I made a million $'s they would still find a problem with it. That is just the way they are. No matter the roads I chose to travel in life they will allways think I should go their way not my own. I chose to take a year away from public service when we moved here due to the fact I was getting a little burned out, 14yrs in EMS does that to you. One of my last calls before moving was the loss of a baby, I have delt with this many times before but this time it hit me hard. I saw myself getting to be cold with people, and I was not sure if it was right for me anymore. A couple of weeks ago I was out to lunch with my Mother and son when a elderly woman behind us began to have some serious medical issues, I did not think twice about helping her and explaing to her husband what was going on and that we needed to call an ambulace for her. I felt better than I have in some time, so this was my sign, it's time to get back to giving to people what I love, help. I know this now, that helping people is what I was ment to do. If my family never uderstands, so be it. I have seen alot of bad things happen to good people, and been the one they called to help them, sometimes I could, and somtimes I had to give them bad news, but I can always say good or bad at least I was there to try. Well enough of this , I hope to be back in the seat soon. Thanks for the ear, any of you ever need to vent I am here.